gotta get that new new

So this is the new year
And I have no resolutions
For self assigned penance
For problems with easy solutions

2010 is upon us, and i for one am inspired to start anew. new goals, new experiences, new perspective, new me.... well rejuvenated me. i will strive to draw closer to the person The Lord would like me to be, and closer the person i know that i can be. elbow grease will be required... i have so many great ideas, and i think that i'm ready to finally start making them happen. i have dreams that i would like to see realized. lets hope that i will.

i look back at 2009 as a time of growth. i would not be so confident about myself in 2010 otherwise. ya maybe i didn't do as much as i would have liked, and ya there's some things that i still need to work on, but i feel as though i'm finally ready to do those things- to be a better person, a better friend, a better student. to be better to people and to be better to myself. i don't think i give myself enough credit, and that has a lot to do with my self doubt, and my negative self image. but i think that as i grow, those will both slowly disappear. how can i do anything that i want to do with those things hanging over my head?

i know that the Lord has so much in store for me, and i know that i can be worthy of those things. more elbow grease will be needed, but i can do it. i'm like that little engine that could. i think i can, i think i can, i think i can... you know?

i'm excited to see how school goes. i'm taking all these boring classes, like economics, and marketing, and yet i could not be more excited for them. i know that its what i need to be doing, and i'm finally ready to do it... i guess i just needed to finally realize it.

bumbumbum.... that was a little tune while i think about what to say haha

uh... i've got nothing else, as its 4:41 and i'm not firing on all cylinders at the moment. so i'll leave you with my blessings to you all- may the Lord bless you in everything that you do, and may you keep Him in mind as you go about your days. i know that we focus on living like Christ a lot during this time of year, but i challenge you all to live by His example throughout the year, and throughout your life. it is something i'm working towards, and honestly, it would just make the world such a greater place if everyone lived like that. i know religion isn't for everyone, but so much good can come from living by the principles taught within the scriptures. so do it, even if you don't want to. you'll find yourself slowly wanting to, as time goes on, and you'll find that you're leading a much happier life.

so i leave this year behind, and welcome the new year and a bright future with all of you. there's a sun shining, and i can feel it's rays.

God bless this mess.

school is cool

School is cool. So cool in fact that I went ahead and signed up for it again. 15 hours of it every week even!

I'll be taking:
Acting III
Play Reading
Principles of Macroeconomics
Health & Wellness
Principles of Management
and U.S. SOC & CULT SN 1877...

Not sure what that last one is though... I'm blogging this on my phone so my connection to the internet is limited... However it should be a great semester. Lots of learning and junk.

I went to Duffy's tonight to do stand-up, and it went okay. I was nervous so I was talking fast, but some of my jokes hit, so that was a plus. I managed to tell a poop joke. And let's be honest, poop jokes are always funny. My face got super warm, and some girl hooted at me, and I flirted on stage with her, but I couldn't see what she looked like... She was short and large and not pretty and drunk...

Needless to say this is where I tell you I'm shallow and only flirt with girls I think won't like me. Its more fun that way. Hahaha I jest... But really though, she was not a pretty sight haha. That sounds horrible, but I'm horrible so I don't care.

I wore my glasses today. I also slept in a stranger's bed last night. Haha those two things did not go together at all... That's what is called a 'nonseguator' (not sure on the spelling though... Basically you segue from one topic to another with a completely different subject... And there's your english lesson for the day.

There was a dude that made poop jokes and jokes about how overweight he was for his whole set. I did not like it. It was a nice lesson in what not to do. No one will like you if you don't like yourself. Too philosophical? I think so...

Anyway I have no idea where this blog is heading but I want to end with a poem. However I will not... I have no patience on this little phone to come up with a ditty for you.

So will bid you farewell for now, and let you know how special you are to me. Keep up the good work.

"Sorry about my dad... He likes to show off sometimes" -Jesus (on why God created the earth)

when it rains it pours

and i'm done pouring.

So long, farewell, auf Wiedersehen, good night.
I'm glad to go, I cannot tell a lie.


done wasting my time.
period.

blind

i can't see. i don't have my contacts in, and i can't find my glasses, but that's 100% beside the point.

i'm blind to every wave i make in my tiny pond, and how they affect the people around me.

my room is clean, and that's nice.

so there's that i suppose...

i need a haircut. and a new pair of shoes. gravis preferably.

i want to make a short film, but i need it to snow first.

i found my glasses! success!

that is all. end of blog. life is blah.

nothing has changed

life is still living, and i still have hair on my head. new music has been discovered, and old music has faded into the background. friendships have grown, or shrunk. or disappeared completely. such is life.

i have a sinus infection. the doctor gave me antibiotics and steroids. i feel like i should be a big muscle guy, but they're apparently a different kind of steroid. i'm still not sure what to believe. maybe i'll get roid rage and punch some people.

i was messing around with stage makeup today, and at one point my face was purple. no pictures to document this event though. dang.

this weekend was entertaining. i saw reckless at wesleyan, and it was amazing. 'life has been reckless with these people' i want to make art that well.

sometimes i feel like its us that are reckless with ourselves, not life. we are the variable. life is a constant.

what else? um... my parents were gone to Colorado Springs this weekend, and they're being vague about their activities. i hope they didn't kill anyone. i have no idea how i would deal with that news. probably poorly.

i slept in their bed while they were gone. very comfortable. i could sleep in it every night, if at all possible. maybe i'll steal their bed when i move out.

i'm listening to Gregory and the Hawk, a very deceptive band name. it is just one person. a girl. there is no one named Greg, and there is no bird. at all. however her music is very pleasant. go check it out. I'd say please, but that wouldn't change your mind as to whether or not you're going to listen to it. it will not push you over that edge between doing it, and not doing it, you know what i mean?

i watched a lot of movies this weekend, as well as the husker game. i'm still a big fan of (and always will be for that matter) well produced films. and i've decided that there's a distinct difference between films and movies. Fight Club is a film. Baby Mama is a movie. make sense? like it really matters anyway. most people don't care enough to make a distinction between things like that. but i'm snoody, so i can do that.

i like all movies. and films. i always find something to like about them. well i just lied again. BTK was the single worst thing i've ever seen in my life. horrible acting. horrible production. horrible dialogue. horrible story line. just disgusting all around. never see it if you don't have to. it should just be erased from time and space.

give me my 90 minutes back from that one, please.

but really i find something to appreciate about almost everything i watch. even the kiddy shows i watch with my niece. there's something there that someone put in because they love what do, and its my mission to find those things in everything. does that make sense? i hope so. i can't be the only person that does this.

the iTunes visualizer blows my mind.

i need a tripod.

the humor in this post was very dry, and i hope that translated well.

my eyes are tired.

look left and look right but never look down. never look down.
thank you justin nozuka


good day to you all.

i want

love.
happiness.
mcdonalds for breakfast.
a couch.
some new books to read.
to meet willy wonka.
a pair of prescription sunglasses.
a new laptop.
understanding.

someone to wake up to.

phone blog

This is a blog from my phone. It probably won't be thàt good but here we go.

I'm in church right now with mandy, and its general conference weekend. Basically we get to hear from our church leadership twice a year- its awesome. Admit it. Elder Bednar is tight. And has funny stories. Haha

I went to Parachute and Secondhand Serenade last night with mandy, and jeff. It was good. However I missed 'We Ain't Plastic' at The Public in lincoln, which is a bummer but I had a better time in omaha. :)

I am happy, and this was subpar, but oh well. I'm sitting by this hot girl, and I'm in church so I appreciate the situation. Haha

Deal.

Later kids.