anyway

now that i have my computer back i have some things to do.
one of them being editing our video for this place:














along those lines i have to type up some things i've written to show to this man:













then i've got to uh..... actually i think thats it... i've gotta sew... and uh... put my life back together. but those last two should take no time at all! hahaha

what a horrible day to be in such an okay mood.


later kids

words

words rarely mean nothing.

and lately i've had an overwhelming urge to use them. to write. and yet when i sit down with pen and pad, nothing comes to mind... i'm writing about having nothing to write about in hopes that i'll have something to write about soon... hopefully speed along the process.
i take that back. i wrote a narrative of my trip to LA. but that's about as far as its gone. i can't get anything else out. everything i've had any opinion about lately has come out of my mouth. i have no new ideas, or thoughts to share with you. my mind is draining... and the 'E' light is flashing, nagging at me to stop at a gas station, to refuel...
and yet i can't, i'm stuck in drive. my car refuses to pull over. no matter how hard i crank the wheel it just keeps cruising. its like in one of those old time movies, or cartoons where someone is driving, and suddenly the steering wheel pops off and no matter how hard they try, they can't get it back on.... that's my brain and writing right now.

here's something... nothing substantial... but its one of the most memorable things that occurred on my recent trip. it was this random guy announcing a wrestling match in detail... to himself... walking across the street. i cannot imagine what scenario was playing out in his head where he would have to announce a wrestling match... people are so odd sometimes. and scary... frightening mostly...

that's about all i've got. i think i excluded that from my previous account of my trip... it was roughly 3 am when i wrote it, so there's some things missing.

anyway have a good day. i carved a pumpkin. it took two hours to gut and carve this intricate giraffe, and then just as i was finishing the inside of the head all just fell out. so to fix it, i had to cut out all the details... now its just a silhouette. a far cry from the beauty of the original work.

The Election

I finally made my decision. I'm voting for Obama. Not because I like him. Well i do like him, but i think what he has planned for out country's health care system, our country's economic situation, and our nation's energy crisis are better than McCain's plans.


And while i don't entirely (or at all for that matter) agree with his ethical standings, i think that he will be a better leader.I think what he brings to the table is far more thought out and far better developed.


I'd also like to point out how annoying John McCain was during the whole debate. Any time Senator Obama would say something Senator McCain would make the most ridiculous faces, as you can see in my screen grab. Plus he really came if with a holier than thou sort of thing. He took every chance he could get to attack Barack in some way or another, whether it was a snide remark or being condescending about his views.












Also he took lots of time to draw pictures, as you can see. i don't want an easily distracted petty man leading my nation.












thank you for your time.
-robert

he had it comin

he had it comin, he had it comin, he only had himself to blame. if you'd have been there, if you'd have seen it, i bet ya you would have done the same.


i love things. tonight was the best night ever. i love theatre. its so hard, but this show makes it all worth it. i mean, if we never get to where we did again, i'll be happy. yeah there were moments it didn't work, where things didn't click, but for the most part, it was amazing. ah-maze-ing.

i'm dead though. but its a good dead.



life is too hard to handle some times though. like you think you're somewhere, and then one thing happens and you're in completely different place.

i need to take my shoes off.

i can't actually write, i can blog, but i can't write... beginning-middle-end is too much for my brain to create... i'm good with beginning... but that's about it.

in general life is pretty tight. i use that word too much by the way. tight and sick... i can't seem to stop myself though... they're just good words. life is pretty good. how about that?

life is good. i mean it really isn't, but whats going on right now out weights whats going on outside of right now... does that even make sense to anyone? do i make sense to anyone? ever?

probably not, but that's okay. i'm a goofy little douchebag in the middle of nowhere, with big hopes and big dreams, and i'm not afraid to reach for them... even if i fall on my face, at least i tried... and i know this is coming out of nowhere... but i really don't like this guy that always tries to step on anything positive i have going, you know who he is (well you probably don't)... but in the vague sense he's a hater... and he's really so insecure that he has to make fun of and hate on everyone and everything he sees. he thinks he has a good graffiti style, and that he's super cool, but guess what. he's doesn't really, and is not really- respectively. i mean i'm all for building a strong community, but he's one person i'd like to exile from the community. that's it... just push him out of the circle... i try to be nice, and i try to be his friend, and then he talks behind my back, and he hates, and he's sketchy. i guess he tries to hard to be an individual, he forgot how to be a person. but i hope the best for him... usually.


i try too hard, and i lose the things i want, and i mess up, and i push people away, and i bring people too close, but i am me. and i love it, and i hate it, but i can't take it back... so i'll live with regrets, and unrequited love, and a broken heart, and so many other things, but i'll live, and that's the important thing....

thanks for listening to me ramble... i didn't even talk about what i had to say originally, but that will be for another day


later skater.

i am

complex.

i am excited for my future. i am scared. i am so much more than i will ever know. i am friendly. i am abrasive. i am loud. i am so much more than you will ever know. i am an artist. i love more than you think. i am too judgmental. i can't get enough of life. i want you to be the cocaine in my veins. i wish i could write plays. i have a White sewing machine. i don't know where i'm going half the time. i have the worst memory ever. i love mint green. i wish that everything would be fixed. i wish for the return of the savior. i love my faith. i will not back down. i love you. i love me. i love everyone you don't think i love. i am a mystery even to myself. i don't know what it is about you, but you drive me insane in the best way possible. i have so much to say, but am often to scared to say it. i hate capitol letters. i wish to better articulate myself. i am what i am. i always want new things. i am a pack rat. i love filming. i love skateboarding. i have a poor self image fifty percent of the time. i like to look at myself in the mirror. i am not conceited. i waste far too much time. i won't remember your name the first few times i meet you. i love typing. i have so many good ideas in my head. i have a hard time following through. i love music. i love musicals. i have accepted my flaws. i am trying to fix my flaws. i live at home. i am nerous to move. i know that i need to grow up. i love to love. i am an introvert, as odd as that sounds. i have no censor on what comes out of my mouth. i am quick to speak. i have valid points. i love.

i am complex.

roll 2

well this roll was less than fruitful. a good half of it was under exposed, so i put up the ones that actually turned out.


uh... life is going to be good from now on. lots of changes, and such. a new leaf, as i just told Andie.

i can't wait. ugh! i've been acting really weird, and being all reclusive, and stuff. but i just needed time to sort things out in my head i think.

yeah i was a little nutty, but i pretty much never deal with really heavy life topics of my own ever, so it was hard, and weird. and its only just begun! haha

i kinda just want to leave for LA now and get started. haha but i'll wait mostly because i need money, and such. but i'm so excited for what The Lord has in store and what my future holds.

thankyou Andie. you have no idea how wonderful you are.

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ps. i just got a book on how to use a camera, so hopefully this sort of thing won't happen again... with the film i mean! :)