blind

i can't see. i don't have my contacts in, and i can't find my glasses, but that's 100% beside the point.

i'm blind to every wave i make in my tiny pond, and how they affect the people around me.

my room is clean, and that's nice.

so there's that i suppose...

i need a haircut. and a new pair of shoes. gravis preferably.

i want to make a short film, but i need it to snow first.

i found my glasses! success!

that is all. end of blog. life is blah.

nothing has changed

life is still living, and i still have hair on my head. new music has been discovered, and old music has faded into the background. friendships have grown, or shrunk. or disappeared completely. such is life.

i have a sinus infection. the doctor gave me antibiotics and steroids. i feel like i should be a big muscle guy, but they're apparently a different kind of steroid. i'm still not sure what to believe. maybe i'll get roid rage and punch some people.

i was messing around with stage makeup today, and at one point my face was purple. no pictures to document this event though. dang.

this weekend was entertaining. i saw reckless at wesleyan, and it was amazing. 'life has been reckless with these people' i want to make art that well.

sometimes i feel like its us that are reckless with ourselves, not life. we are the variable. life is a constant.

what else? um... my parents were gone to Colorado Springs this weekend, and they're being vague about their activities. i hope they didn't kill anyone. i have no idea how i would deal with that news. probably poorly.

i slept in their bed while they were gone. very comfortable. i could sleep in it every night, if at all possible. maybe i'll steal their bed when i move out.

i'm listening to Gregory and the Hawk, a very deceptive band name. it is just one person. a girl. there is no one named Greg, and there is no bird. at all. however her music is very pleasant. go check it out. I'd say please, but that wouldn't change your mind as to whether or not you're going to listen to it. it will not push you over that edge between doing it, and not doing it, you know what i mean?

i watched a lot of movies this weekend, as well as the husker game. i'm still a big fan of (and always will be for that matter) well produced films. and i've decided that there's a distinct difference between films and movies. Fight Club is a film. Baby Mama is a movie. make sense? like it really matters anyway. most people don't care enough to make a distinction between things like that. but i'm snoody, so i can do that.

i like all movies. and films. i always find something to like about them. well i just lied again. BTK was the single worst thing i've ever seen in my life. horrible acting. horrible production. horrible dialogue. horrible story line. just disgusting all around. never see it if you don't have to. it should just be erased from time and space.

give me my 90 minutes back from that one, please.

but really i find something to appreciate about almost everything i watch. even the kiddy shows i watch with my niece. there's something there that someone put in because they love what do, and its my mission to find those things in everything. does that make sense? i hope so. i can't be the only person that does this.

the iTunes visualizer blows my mind.

i need a tripod.

the humor in this post was very dry, and i hope that translated well.

my eyes are tired.

look left and look right but never look down. never look down.
thank you justin nozuka


good day to you all.

i want

love.
happiness.
mcdonalds for breakfast.
a couch.
some new books to read.
to meet willy wonka.
a pair of prescription sunglasses.
a new laptop.
understanding.

someone to wake up to.

phone blog

This is a blog from my phone. It probably won't be thàt good but here we go.

I'm in church right now with mandy, and its general conference weekend. Basically we get to hear from our church leadership twice a year- its awesome. Admit it. Elder Bednar is tight. And has funny stories. Haha

I went to Parachute and Secondhand Serenade last night with mandy, and jeff. It was good. However I missed 'We Ain't Plastic' at The Public in lincoln, which is a bummer but I had a better time in omaha. :)

I am happy, and this was subpar, but oh well. I'm sitting by this hot girl, and I'm in church so I appreciate the situation. Haha

Deal.

Later kids.

patience

I have none.
I am the most impatient person I know.
I'm like that girl in Willy Wonka- "I want it, and I want it now!!" And then she goes down the egg chute! Then her dad jumps in after her!
I don't want to end up going down the egg chute!

So that's my problem. I see something I want, and I therefore need it.
There are days when I feel like I'm growing up, and then there are days I feel like I will have the mindset of a 5 year old for my entire life.
Which worries me a little.

I mean not a lot, but a little.

blogcity

i though i'd start a new blog, you know a sort of new beginning and all. since that is the theme of my life lately, but i decided that i liked the name of this one entirely too much to just go and start a new one. i mean lets face it, the title of this blog is possibly the high point of my career. not sure what career that would be -maybe naming things- but whatever it is, this is the apex. so i'll stick with this one. okay?

currently i'm listening to a musical. specifically i'm listening to tick, tick... BOOM! but thats not important. what is important is that i'm listening to something that isn't HAIR. because i love that musical to death, but i was listening to that, and that only. i wasn't even listening to NPR from 4pm to 7pm! it was a serious problem. no longer though.

i feel like life is very amazing right now. refreshing in fact. the Lord seems to be steering me toward a very good place, and for the first time in a while i'm listening to His advice... funny how things work out when you do that, huh? i am thankful for His persistence.

anyway i just wanted to say that i'm very thankful for the people in my life right now, and all the goodness they bring. positivity can be a very powerful tool.

i know this isn't too deep, but i can't really concentrate right now, because of the musical thats playing right now, and my need to sing along with it, but the next one will be really good, i promise. maybe it'll even be hilarious. or witty. or another great descriptive word.

I SAID GOOD DAY SIR!

-robert

take another picture with your click, click, click, camera

name that song and i'll give you a dollar.


soooo.... this happened:
and you will not believe how devastated i am about it. i mean yeah its only the mic, and yeah its fixable, but i honestly don't know what i'll do with myself between now and the time i get it fixed. filming is so much a apart of me, that i don't feel whole without it.
i keep telling myself that i'll be great, because i'll be able to skate more (something i desperately need btw) but at the same time all i can think about is the wasted time spent not filming. its literally on my mind all the time. i'll be hanging out with friends and i'll be thinking of what spots we could be at instead of hanging out. or i try and think of new creative ways to film, to keep the viewer interested. even when i'm sewing its on my mind. or i'll be listening to music, and i'll editing footage in my head, and deciding whether the song that is playing would be good in a video or not. things like that...
i guess over the last however long its been since i picked up a camera its become so much a part of me, that not having the ability to use it is like not having the ability to sing, or see. it means that much to me, and it just bums me out beyond belief.

that's all. i'll let you know when its fixed. have a good'n












the song is "Click Click Click Click" by Bishop Allen